A Brand New Joy!

Posted by Angelia White on December 10th, 2009 in Blog | No Comments

As 2009 comes to end and we prepare to welcome a new year, I must say I am thankful that it’s ending on a good note. I’m not saying that I have everything all together or my life is just completely perfect! That would be far from the truth. I reflect back to the ending of 2007 and remember how absolutely terrible I felt. I was at a point in my life and my business where I thought I had failed on every angle. I was torn up on the inside. I regretted the fact that God had given me this precious vision of a magazine to inspire and uplift women, and my family put everything on the line to make it work. Then, all in one day, we looked up and there was nothing. I felt horrible! Subscribers were depending on us to deliver a product, but everything was completely out of whack in my life. Physically, I had gained nearly 75lbs; emotionally, I was depressed; spiritually, I wasn’t growing. Many people wouldn’t dare admit it to my face, but it was true. Although I was working diligently to inspire women to remain hopeful, in my world I was desperately trying to convince myself to keep the faith and remain confident.

To add to an already troubling marriage, our finances were far from Rockefeller status. My life has mirrored a roller coaster, but with more sudden twists and upside down turns than sailing straightforward. YET, joy comes in the morning, and God gives us new mercies each day. I know that where HOPE is today could only be from God. I get really excited! I jump up with gladness in my heart and praises coming out of my mouth. This has been a faith walk, and even though I didn’t feel like getting out of bed on some days, God never gave up on me. He kept me.

I’m glad that I didn’t stay in that place of hopelessness and despair. One day my mother said to me, “No, we don’t have the money, but you still have the vision, and NO ONE can take that from you but God!” So, when I thought it was the end, it was actually the beginning.

I send my glad tidings to you! Everything has to be done according to God’s perfect timing. I’m certainly not saying that God hasn’t inspired you to follow the dream or vision, but all things have to fall into proper order and timing. My marriage that was once shaky has been put back together. My emotional self has been restored, and more importantly, my spirit has been awakened! When God is for us, who can be against us? No one, not even ourselves! So, as 2009 ends, 2010 is knocking at the door with more surprises, obstacles, visions, dreams and HOPE. God has already planned it all out for us. Do not fret, my friends! Happy Holidays!